So, people who just go to know me. Let me tell you what i have been through. I mean ALL. But mostly family.
Here it goes, Im an orphan. Yes, iam. The "PARENTS" i told you about in previous post were actually my aunt and uncle, but now i take them as my parents. Its not that i have forgotten my REAL parents. Its just, that i have to let go and move on. Even though its hard.
Well then , when i was a baby my mum and dad got a divorce. Why ? Cause apparently my dad have anger issues and whatsoever. Oh, i have a brother too, his name is Misha Kyrie Lund. Girly name huh ? Yea, kinda. I have never ever ever ever seen him and my dad before. Seriously. Its kinda weird not knowing how your brother looks like. PFFT. So, they divorced and my mum took me, while my dad took my brother.
When i was 6 , my mum found this dude that she really loves and knows that he love her back. I didnt care about them, all i know is that i have someone as a "father". Well, they got married when i was in standard 2. I really like him. He's really really nice, religious and kinda rich. Yea. They were really happy. And i was happy.
Then, this one day (in standard 4) . It was examination week. The exam nearly started but then, my driver suddenly appeared and ask the teacher to take me home. And i was like WTH ? WHY ? The walk from my class to the school office was awfully silent ( ask permission to leave school ). He just didnt say a word. Nothing. I said to him why did you take me ? what happened ? why why why ? He said, wait let me call you father (step-father). On the phone, i hear my dad crying and i was like why are you crying ? He said " Mummy dah meninggal dunia ". Damn. She was in the hospital for awhile but i didnt thought it would end up like this. Hell yea, i cried. Sigh. I still remember that day, clearly. It hurts. It sucks. Nobody wants to go through that.
I started to live with my aunt and uncle. And usually on weekends, i would go to me step-dad's house. It was okayy. One day, i found out that my step-dad is suffering from kidney failure and.. he died a few weeks after that. Hmmph. Im unlucky.
It was kinda hard for a little girl like me to be going through all these things. Standard 5 and 6 was the phase that i hated everybody and i wanted to die. I was very rude to people. There was no point of me being alive. Seriously, i went all emo and stuffs. I really hated my life.
In form one all of that changed. Well not all. I changed school and went to SMKSBS. I was still emo karissa, but i started to LIKE life. Not love. Oh, in form 1 also, i got news saying that my REAL dad died. But, i didnt cry or anything. I didnt know him. He was outta my life long ago.
In the middle of form 1 is where I changed. I started listening to Christofer Drew. His songs give me hope. It spread's peace and love. His lyrics are inspiring and truly do teach people about how the world works. I listen to it everyday. Listening to his songs, made me more patient, kind and even more happy. Haha, that sounds cheesy, but its true. Heck, his the reason i play my guitar every single day.
Now, I LOVE MY LIFE.
"You’re only as tall as your heart will let you be and you’re only as small as the world will make you seem"
